I feel like I am training for a marathon. I did this 15 years ago after completing a half marathon. Training for these events required hours of running which I was willing to give during the wee hours of the morning so as not to take me from my time with my children.
2 Timothy 3:16-17 says, “All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, equipped for every good work.
This is where my training is now taking place during the wee hours of the morning…in God’s Word! I love that God’s training for me is purposeful, intentional, and for my good and His glory in the end.
I have another brain tumor.
As I was drawing near to my 5 year mark since the first tumor was found, (Brain Tumor 2014) I was surprised when the MRI revealed a new mass growing.
Let me be frank – I LOVE JESUS CHRIST! He is my everything and nothing in this life compares to the love I have for Him and the life I have in Him. That said, I know that He is with me and is intimately acquainted with all my ways (Psalm 139).
Everything, especially the unexpected, difficult, and trying circumstances, comes into our lives with a purpose. Job endured many trials and losses, but confidently spoke of Him during his suffering, “The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.” (Job 1:21) At the end of all his struggles, he declared to the LORD, “I know that you can do all things, and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted.” (42:2)
Joseph (Genesis 37-46) encountered countless difficulties, but “the Lord was with Joseph” (Gen. 39:21) and God’s purpose was accomplished, “As for you (brothers), you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today.” (Gen. 50:20)
As I have options with this tumor (18mm) that I did not have with the last one, I am trusting God’s leading for me to approach it nutritionally (natural medicine) for the next 4 months. To supply my body with what it is lacking (Vit. D, B12, sodium, magnesium)
and remove from my diet what is weakening me (inflammation, yeast, bacteria, gluten). The doctor’s office is 25 steps directly behind the boat
as we are docked in Palm Beach Gardens, FL.
In December I will get another MRI to determine if it is still growing.
And Jesus said to all, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.” Luke 9:23
There are many crosses, and every one of them is sore and heavy. None of them is likely to be sought out by me of my own accord. But never is Jesus so near me as when I lift my cross, and lay it submissively on my shoulder, and give it the welcome of a patient and unmurmuring spirit.
He draws close, to ripen my wisdom, to deepen my peace, to increase my courage, to augment my power to be of use to others, through the very experience which is so grievous and distressing, and then–as I read on the seal of one of those Scottish Covenanters whom Claverhouse imprisoned on the lonely Bass, with the sea surging and sobbing round–I grow under the load.–Alexander Smellie (1857-1923) (Hour of Silence)
–the body cannot be happy if the soul is miserable in the other world, but the soul may be happy though the body be greatly afflicted and oppressed in this world– Matthew Henry commentary on Luke 9:23
“I have one passion, and it is Jesus, Jesus only!” Zinzendorf